Long day yesterday on very little sleep.  I need sleep but I don't have any right to go crying about why I'm not getting very much of it.  Maybe it is helping me by not allowing my mind to think about cravings.  I felt like that was the case yesterday.

Days without porn: 7
This so far is seeming anything but a problem.  I have no desire whatsoever to look at porn and the more I consider it and my actions the more disgusted I am with it and myself.  I haven't had the slightest compulsion or urge and that must be a good thing.

Days without alcohol: 7
Again, this has been far and away the harder of the two at least as long as cravings are concerned.  It's the secondary issue in terms of what's ruined and continues to ruin my life but day-to-day it is a whole lot harder.  Yesterday I don't think I had trouble with it but this morning on the bus I had a strong desire to drink myself into oblivion to hide the shame and guilt that I feel inside.  But I know that that would not be fair to the people who care about me, nor would a single drink or a single pornographic click. 

I've made promises that I don't intend to break.