Days without porn: 16
I have no intention of looking at porn ever again.  That has not changed.  I am disgusted with porn and more importantly with myself and all of the things I looked at.  I have no cravings.  I don't want the horrible thing at all.  I am going to begin my group therapy on Monday, which will last 16 weeks.  I am scared of groups but it will be good for me in overcoming this part of my life as well as probably helping me communicate with people.  I know I have to do this and I am going to do it.  But I'm still worried.

Days without alcohol: 16
I think my alcohol cravings are lessening but I can't really tell.  I still get in situations in which I feel helpless and my natural thought is to turn to drink, but I know I can't do this any more.  I plan to replace pubs as a "safe place" with coffee shops.  This is going well enough so far I think. I may be about to begin living alone for a time, and this will pose difficulties because (both of) my addictions affect me far stronger when I'm alone, but maybe this is something I need to do.  I can't keep leaning on people.  I need to learn to stand up on my own so that I can be a functional member of society.  Although I may have to accept money from my parents to allow this to happen in the first place.  But I don't know.  I will pay back anything I borrow in time.


I am going to get better.