I have problems.  I can't go into them now but this is a place for me to chronicle my struggles.

Days without Porn: 6
I haven't struggled too much with this one.  I have had one "urge" to look at porn since deciding never to look at it again.  I spied a link in my junk email to a website I'd signed up for years ago and felt a twinge of the familiar curiosity.  I swiftly repressed this by thinking of the damage it would do to look at it, which I can't explain why I've so rarely managed to do before.  Sometimes I don't completely trust myself near computers, especially when I'm stressed, but I haven't had any other urges for porn.

Days without Alcohol:  6
This has been far more difficult.  I already knew this was a problem and I think it was a much larger part of my life.  I find it hard to walk past a pub without going in for a beer although I've been successful in this.  I've discussed with my girlfriend the possibility of replacing pubs with coffee shops.  But when I get very down I get very strong cravings for alcohol.  I poured away a bottle of sherry in the kitchen because that was the only way I could guarantee I wouldn't drink it.  I made my girlfriend get rid of any other alcohol lying around.  I'm not saying that porn isn't going to be difficult, but this is proving to be very hard.

Last night I was violent towards my girlfriend for the first and last time.  I don't know what came over me but I yelled at her and shook her when she was already in pain.  I can't believe what I've done and I'm so ashamed.  I will never do anything like that ever again.