Days without porn: 22
It's been just over three weeks since the big incident now and I have managed to avoid any sort of relapse so far.  As I say, this hasn't been all that difficult although that scares me a little.  I'm worried that I will overcome this with little difficulty and still have all of my problems that I'm looking for it to "solve".  But still, I can only live in hope.  I went to the first session of my 16-week group therapy course on Monday and it wasn't as bad as I was fearing.  I was the youngest there by far, which makes me worry that the problem will never fully go away but hopeful because I've "caught" it relatively early.  We spoke mostly about hopes and fears.  I think it will help.

Days without alcohol: 22
No relapse here either, although this one has been more of a challenge.  It's been better recently because I've been able to control my anger so my girlfriend and haven't fought for a few days.  It's the stress of fighting that has really made me want to drink these past weeks so it's good to get rid of that as much as possible.  I have really struggled to abandon alcohol completely since theoretically giving it up in May last year so I hope that I can get totally on top of it once and for all.  I would like group help for this too but I might have to find some more time first.

I also went to a one-off counselling session at work which wasn't all that helpful.  My girlfriend and I are looking to get some couples' counselling if we can which I feel will help us both a lot.

Other than that, nothing really to report.  I feel like I'm making progress.  I hope that I can develop into a reliable adult and my girlfriend will be able to trust me again.  I know I will get better.